F-E-V-E-R 4-E-V-E-R

Shivering from the inside.

Warm on the outside.

The pain radiating from the bones.

No appetite but my hunger pangs are killing.

Not wanting to drink but I am dehydrating.

I have no energy to move a single limb.

I am badly in need of an icy shower but am shivering and not even an ounce of energy to get out of bed to do so.

I feel like having a diarrhoea and I feel like puking. I feel bloated but none it is.

My mind wonders in dillusion.

I lie in bed and get ravaged helplessly.

Only one thing .. Death.

But even Death wouldn't come obviously.

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> Over-exhaustion. Over-working. Long unforgiving hours. Bad weather. There the perfect formula for a Living Death.

Sickeningly BZ

If only I was this strong ....merely shouldering on

You know you're too busy when you cannot afford to fall sick.

And when you have fallen sick, you know

you ought to be too sick to be busy.

Ought to. But I still am.

If I can take a break, should I???? :-/

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Being Self-sacrificial is noble. For fools like me. ^^P .... I really am thinking..

AM I DOING IT FOR THE RESPONSIBILITIES OF MY JOB? OR IS IT MORE OF UPKEEPING A PROFESSION AL REPUTATION FOR OTHERS TO LIKE?

All Swell is not Well

I'm missing my good ole Foxxxy...(below; happier times)
Foxxxy's head may be big. BUT NOT THIS BIG !!!!

The swelling has made her head nearly twice its original size.

IT'S HUGE!!!! :(

Lymphoma , the Vet says.

Cancer , for everybody else.

"Lymphoma is the most common malignant cancer treated in veterinary oncology. In dogs, the most common presentation for lymphoma is multiple non-painful enlargements of peripheral lymph nodes. It is most common that dogs with lymphoma present without any clinical signs of illness in spite of these enlarged lymph nodes. In most cases lymphoma is thought of as a disseminated disease, where the malignant lymphocytes exist in many tissues through the body."

(It can be remission ed; really??????)

I'm devastated.

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2cond that or I won't

My Foxxy has Cancer.

So says the vet.

But that quick? That sudden?

Seeking a second opinion or I'm no Believer.

Deeply affected. :(:::

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Worrying

My Dawg is sick.

Very sick.

She won't eat.

She's swelling in the stomach and intestines.

Her lymph nodes have been huge for weeks now.

That stoooopid f*cking Vet said it's ok. It's alright. It's Normal.

Just got a second opinion and questions have been raised. Alarms ringing.

Too terrible to write here for fear of jinxing. (Bawl!)

If anything happens to dearie.

I'll sue his ass off. #$%^&*(*&#$!!!!

Q...I Pray.

Superman needs a Timing Out.

When One is Sick. There can be no Cure. There can be no Choice.

No point being angry. No point thinking this here is a bag of Lazy Bones.

Getit, Moe? A:-D

I'm down and out and there's no point pretending its all swell and dandy.


P-E-R-I-O-D.

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