Time to Get my SEXY Back

Heart Ache: The cruelty of being taken for Granted

When the lust and honeymoon period is over and you get to see the person deteriorating right before your eyes, it hurts.

Let's call this person I 've foolishly gave my heart, body and soul to, 'A'.

I'm still blindly in love btw. Just really disgruntled and disillusioned. Pain and more pain.

Lemme tell you my sad story:

1) It started when they 'A' became highly unreliable when it comes to keeping promises and staying true to their words and said-appointments.

'A' could promise to meet and cancel the appointment minutes before meeting up. Doing this over and over again , over multiple dates.

Makes you feel betrayed and like a fool. Your time , energy and effort in pushing everything else aside doesnt seem to matter .

2) Then you realise that 'A' takes conversations lightly. 'A' doesn't remember the things discussed. 'A' doesnt care the issues talked about; even the pivotal ones regarding the relationship; like how I feel or what needs to improve to make the relationship postive.

I'm always left wondering 'Didn't we have this conversation before? You talk about it like its new and surprising. You don't care or remember do you? '

3) Broken promises of 'I will call' and 'I will inform you'. Taking it lightly once again. And caring little of your schedule and waiting.

4) Lying or trying to escape a situation when confronted. What da hell is wrong in being honest? There's no deep dark secret is there?

5)Not messaging/ calling/replying me for hours and even days/weeks on end. MSN messaging is FREE. SMS is cheap and takes mere seconds to send. Calls can be a short 5 mins even just before bed time. None. Simply cannot be bothered. 'Tired' and 'busy' are but lame excuses over a lack of effort and commitment.

6) Ego and Issues. Cannot take critisms. Cannot take judgements even when all are positive and contructive. Well, YOU STARTED IT ; being the total a**. So how can I not say? Especially when I've made it clear that non of the critisms is directed at the person but at the attitude towards bending the relationship.

7) Generally being Un-Nice. Unromantic. Abrasive. Flighty. Detachment and Escapism.

8) Worst of all : Insensitive. Already the total jerk-off and still making comments like 'You should take an STD test' out of the blue or when I I bought 'A' a Xmas gift, 'A' actually said 'Is this gift new? (As in is it a recycled gift?) .

W T F .

Love is indeed blind for ... I'll say it again : I'm still blindly in love btw. Just really disgruntled and disillusioned. Pain and more pain.


*** It seems 'A' just wants the perks of a relationship. Taking and not giving.

Baby,

Love is like a bed of roses. There're the torns too when you roll over after making Love.

Q...

Why can't there be commitment to happiness?

ISSUES. Reclaiming my Dignity , I try.

Feel her Spirit

A girl this beautiful . With a graceful presence
and a voice with power and range that matches the Whitneys and Mariahs.

Now, you can't go wrong with that formula.

Winning the British version of American Idol was her big break.

Clive Davis , as her mentor and producer , was her bigger .

No over-singing just to prove that she can a.l.a Christina Aguilera, Beyonce and Nicole Scherzinger.

She 's the new muse (apart from Alicia Keys) of music mogul-extraordinaire Mr. Davis, who's famous for shaping the career of all-time Diva Whitney Houston.


The note-scaling power antics are mandatory for any of Clive's girls.

But, so is subtlety and grace.

So, yes, Leona is lead well.

If , let's say, you haven't already heard her smash 'Bleeding Love' and grooved to Danja and proving the point that you're not likely from a lonely planet called Gia, yeah.

For a long time, there were the wannabes but never real successors to the Houstons , Careys and Dions.

Now here heralds.

Embrace this

Next Big Thing

.


Q

> Together with Amy Winehouse, Rihanna, Fergie and Duffy, me thinks, these girls are gonna be tomorrow's Divvvaaaas.
Oh Beyonce, please sit down...

Rock my Boat ;)

In a perfect world, time stands still.

Beauty is stuck in an era that is bounded by itself.

As enduring as Norah Jones and Amy Winehouse, comes an edgy songstress that is as packaged as any pop star surely but comes without the pretense such that she has little going for her.

No drama. Just a genuinely refined attempt at sealing her place in the limelight for years to come.

For Rockferry is indeed one of those rare debut albums that declares unashamedly that it's maker is a legend-in-the-making.

Duffy, this scruffy Bardot-like siren

is at once raspy, squeaky, head-tone mania and falsetta-heaven.

Yes, as you suspect. Quite possibly, a diva in the making.

With gorgeous tracks like 'Warwick Avenue' and of course the irrepressible 'Mercy' , this next pop darling is an unquestionable talent that has helped spur her to #1 everywhere and millions of records sold.

Great success for a marketing gimmick that could so have gone wrong .

A fashionista or a dowdy wannabe? Well, actually it seems Miss Winehouse has a true rival in Miss D .

Q